Toddler Low HB (con't)

Selepas 3jam menunggu baru dapat cek darah Yusuf di HKL. Lepas tu kene tunggu giliran masuk bilik doktor pula. Doktor kata HB dah jadi 6. Tapi saya cuba bagi asid folik n iron dulu. Minggu depan datang balik tengok HB naik tak. Sebab anak puan dalam keadaan aktif lg. Cuma muka jer pucat. Saya pun tanya doktor adakah sebab sy fully bf menyebabkan anak sy low hb?

Doktor jawab:
"Apabila anak dah masuk setahun puan kene kurangkan susu. Sumber zat selepas 1 tahun adalah daripada makanan. Susu itu dah tak mampu memenuhkan zat kepada anak puan. Bangun pagi, jgn bagi anak minum susu. Kalau nk minum bagi air masak jer. Sebabnya kalau anak kita dah kenyang susu, nanti dia dah tak nak makan. Puan kene ubah persepsi puan, susu tu air jer sebenarnya. Selepas 1 tahun, anak puan perlukan makanan dan kurangkan susu. Susu yang berlebihan mengatasi makanan akan menyebabkan anemia. Tapi kalau puan atau ayah ada talasemia mungkin akan turun kepada anak juga"

Alhamdulilah, lega saya mendengarnya. Saya pun balik dan mengurangkan pencairan EBM. Tapi tula, anak tinggal dengan maid. Hrm... macam banyak bg susu jer. Minggu depannya saya ke HKL lagi. Cek darah dan didapati HB turun kepada 5. Waktu ni dah doktor perempuan macam senior sikit. Doktor kata Yusuf kene admit wad sebab dia takut ada organ dalam badan yang rosak sebab HB rendah. Doktor nak pantau.
Saya minta masuk ke private sebab leceh kalau duduk di HKL. So Doktor bagi surat refer ke hospital swasta.

Saya bawa anak saya ke KPJ Tawakal . Nasib baik leh guna insuran prudential anak saya. Tapi 2 jam jugakla nak tunggu pengesahan dari insurans tu. Anak dah meragam jer. Mula2 doktor ambik darah dulu, nak check detail darah.

Waktu ni agak leceh utk saya nak mengepam 3jam sekali. So saya redha ajer bawa susu tepung ducth lady. Namun bersyukur berjaya menyusukan anak genap setahun walaupun tidak secara direct feed. Lepas masuk wad, suami saya tunggu dulu, sy balik umah ambik barang n bibik. Bila dh sampai hosp anak sy tak duduk di katil pun. Asyik g playground ajer.

Yang lagi kelakar, anak sy ni tidur berbuai. So kitaorg akan tolak dlm stroller sehingga Yusuf tertidur. Guess what, anak saya tdo dlm stroller, sy tdo atas katil dan suami tido di katil tetamu. Hehehe. terkejut nurse ingatkan anak sy takde. So bila masuk wad tu, doktor tu tak buat apa pun. Even ubat pun dia tak bagi sebab dia nk tengok reaksi anak saya. Selepas 2 hari anak sy memang tidak duduk di katil langsung. Asyik ke playground ajer. So hari ke tiga result darah dah keluar. Doktor pun tak tau kenapa HB dia rendah.

Doktor kata:
" Sel pengeluar darah merah cukup, talasemia takde, anemia takde. Yusuf memang tiada masalah kesihatan. Dan waktu ni hb dia dah naik jadi 8. Alhamdulilah"

So doktor kata dia bagi vitamin ajer. Asid folik, iron, multivitamin appeton n apa ntah 1 lg. Setiap 2minggu kene checkup sebab nk cek keadaan Yusuf. Nasib baik treatment after warded boleh claim pada prudential. Ratus2 juga check up nya. Alhamdulilah, baru2 ni masa Yusuf 2 tahun HB nya dah 13. Saya rasa Yusuf ni bila nak tukar tahun memang akan demam la. Wallhua'lam.

Sehingga kini saya masih guna botol 5oz jer dan cuba bg makan bebanyak pada Yusuf. Multivitamin memang bagi tiap2 hari.

From TTC to Pregnancy

Alhamdulilah, daripada bulan Mei saya berTTC kini saya mendapat positif UPT. Pada mulanya saya ingatkan saya ni subur sebab bunting pelamin dulu. So tak perlulah beria saya nk ttc. Tapi selepas 3 bulan masih belum hamil, saya pun mengakui mungkin kehamilan ini tidak bergantung kepada kesuburan wanita. Setelah menggoogle, terjumpala Ratu Hati Forum.

Ratu hati forum ni adalah tempat utk kita bersembang atau berkongsi pengalaman dengan orang lain yang tidak kita kenali. Topic forum yang paling saya suka adalah Ceritakan pengalaman usaha yg dibuat sebelum berjaya hamil . Dalam topik ni kebanyakan yang berjaya hamil memang telah berusaha macam2. Maksudnya rezeki tidak datang bergolek. Apabila membaca kesemuanya saya pun rasa mcm malas nak buat huhu sebabnya banyak sgt amalannya.

Saya juga mendapati kehamilan ini sangat bergantung kepada kestabilan hormon dalam badan. Jadinya saya fikir saya perlu turunkan berat badan supaya hormon saya stabil. Saya juga belajar mengenal Cervical Mucus, mencatatkan tarikh period dan mengurangkan fast food, caffein,  dan air gas. Tak lupa juga minta ibu dan mak mertua doakan saya cepat hamil. Sebab bulan Ogos raya kan. So banyak berjumpa orang banyakla benda nak bersembang. Terselit juga tajuk TTC ni.

Bermula bulan Sept saya bertekad utk TTC secara bersungguh-sungguh. Antara yang dilakukan:
1. Minum air mineral banyak
2. Menurunkan Berat Badan
3. Minum air lemon
4. Minum pati delima ghulsan
5. homopatie
6. makan asid folik
7. Makan kacang badam bermadu
8. teknik Visualisation
9. berdoa banyak-banyak sambil mendoakan orang lain juga.

Nanti kalau ada masa saya akan huraikan satu persatu. Hampir 8 bulan berTTC ianya adalah pengalaman yang mematangkan pemikiran saya dan mengajar erti kesabaran dan bersyukur.

Alhamdulilah.

childbirth: love or fear

Will Our Babies Experience Natural Childbirth in Love? It is Our Choice

We can choose to stay in a state of love just by maintaining our connection and by realizing that all of that energy that comes surging through you during birth is God energy which is LOVE. And no matter what, make the choice to keep interpreting it as such and not allow it to turn to fear. 

The Importance of Clearing Emotional Blocks before Natural Childbirth

During natural childbirth every emotional block that has not been released prior to birth such as our fears, anxieties, self doubts, sexual issues, and such will find us during our birthing time. Because that is the time when there is no more hiding from our selves, the veil is lifted, the walls crumble and our inner issues come up.
It is important that you take time to clear out these old emotional blocks so that they do not cause you or your baby any more damage. You must find it within yourself to realize that the experiences that have taken place in your life or in your past do not define you; and that you will not let them keep you down any longer. They are only illusions that keep you separated from really seeing the beauty and truth of what you are. You must rise up within, reconnect with your truths and take a stand that you will not allow yourself or your baby to fall out of that beautiful state of divine love. And that you will soar high above the useless illusion of fear, pain, and struggle and reclaim your truth!

You Share the Experience of Natural Childbirth with Your Baby

Remember that your baby experiences what you do, and is working just as hard as you are to be born. Every cell in a Mother’s body is directly linked to every cell of her baby’s body and they are communicating and working with each other throughout their entire birth.
If you are experiencing fear then it will send a signal to your baby to be afraid and hesitant to be born, but if you are experiencing love then it will send a signal of safety, love and security, and that is what will draw your baby peacefully into the world.
In birth the material plane comes secondary, the most important matter is that we find that personal power that exists inside of us and focus it as love. There is unimaginable strength in LOVE, and when it is embraced in its fullness all else falls into place. And that LOVE is what will guide your baby across the threshold of birth.

Natural Childbirth Should be Approached as the Ultimate Meditation

It is only when we allow our own resonance to be activated that we are able to reach that state of deep connection and meditation.
The overwhelming energy of hospitals, drugs, procedures, etc. can all interfere with our original state of being and prevents us from reaching that direct connection with ourselves. They keep us trapped in the role of the victim. We feel like they are there to help our babies to be born, and it is then that we surrender control, not to the higher source, but to the hospital staff or the medical system or whatever may be in place to help our babies to be born.
When we do that we are looking outside of ourselves for the answer, instead of within. And we are not allowing our personal strength, power and vibration to be active.
In order for our babies to be born at that increased vibration we need to step through the door into the truth of our full potential, and see ourselves as we truly are. We are not small, weak or insignificant. We are part of God, we are Goddesses, and we bring life!

I hope this makes some sense to you. I have wanted to share this with you but didn’t know if you’d “get it.” But I believe that you will, and that you have an amazing gift and an amazing amount of personal power. Call upon that power. Call upon it now while you are pregnant. Work every day on your energy, release dark or stagnant energy and refill with light and love.

http://mynaturalchildbirth.org/5-hypnobirthing-techniques/

Hypnobirthing Techniques- 5 Easy Steps to Create a Positive State of Mind During Pregnancy & Natural Childbirth

by April on Friday, March 2nd, 2012 | No Comments

If you have never used hypnobirthing techniques before they are a great way to help you stay in a positive mindset during your pregnancy and your natural childbirth. Through mastering these techniques you can effectively rid yourself of destructive patterns of negative thinking and empower yourself with the tools needed to replace them with positives. This can go a long way when preparing yourself for birth!
In this article I’ll share with you a few of my favorite hypnobirthing techniques. And also give some tips and pointers on how you can use them to create a truly enjoyable pregnancy and natural childbirth.

Why I Dove into Practicing Hypnobirthing Techniques

As my pregnancy progressed and the old singular me rapidly faded away, I began noticing  a new pathway opening up, and from it emerged a total shift in what I began to value as important. Stronger than any feeling I had ever experienced before sprung this great desire to give my daughter an amazingly beautiful and peaceful birth. It was as if I had received a message, and I somehow intuitively knew that her soul desired to be born this way!
I knew that she deserved to journey into this world completely and wholy saturated in love; and that my job was to simply allow her this experience without letting my own fears and doubts get in the way. In order to do this I would have to find a way to get beyond all of my uncertainties about birth and transform my mind to a place of complete faith and trust in the process.
I was fortunate to come across some amazing hypnobirthing techniques! I began using them in an attempt to retrain my mind to focus on and allow only positive thoughts into my experience and to protect myself from all thoughts and ideas that did not serve me. Through these hypnobirthing techniques I was able to release the fear that I had been holding onto, and my outlook on my amazing pregnancy and upcoming birth began to glow with optimism!

5 Easy Steps to Create and Maintain a Positive State of Mind Using Hypnobirthing Techniques

Step 1 – Commit Yourself to Practicing Positive Hypnobirthing Techniques:  

As with anything else if you want it to truly work for you, you must first commit yourself to it. If you commit yourself to this it is guaranteed to open up a whole new world for you that will not only help you through your pregnancy and natural childbirth, but will continue to improve the quality of your daily life.

Step 2 – Recite Daily Hypnobirthing Affirmations:

Affirmations are positive suggestions that help to arrange your state of mind to feel great. Pin them on your bathroom mirror and read them to yourself every morning upon waking and every night before going to bed, either out loud or in your mind. Another idea is to record yourself saying these affirmations and listen to them during your day.
So take some time to think about and write down some positive things that you would like to remind yourself of. They should be statements that make you feel safe, they should invoke positive, peaceful, calm and loving feelings about your pregnancy and birth. And remember to always use positive phrasing.
Here are some examples of positive hypnobirthing affirmations:
 “I love my pregnant body and I feel Great!”
“I know that my baby is growing healthy and strong inside of me now.”
“I trust birth, and I allow my body to easily lead me.”
“I know that there is no limit to how deeply I can relax.”
“I look forward to our birthing time.”
“I know that my baby will be born peacefully.”

Step 3- Avoid Negative Self Talk:

This seems pretty simple right? Do not talk bad about yourself. Do not put yourself down. And stop complaining.

Step 4- Avoid Negative People and Situations:

Having a natural childbirth you are going to face all sorts of opposition, this can come from friends, family, doctors and even complete strangers. Stand firm in your beliefs and don’t let anyone succeed in filling you with their fears.
If you know there are going to be certain situations or people that are going to be negative, try to avoid them at all costs until after your birth! I know that this is not always possible which is why next I am going to teach you my personal favorite in Step 5.

Step 5- Create and Use Your Bubble of Peace and Protection

This is a magic bubble that you create around yourself that protects you and your baby by acting as a kind of sheild repelling all negative thoughts, ideas, energies and suggestions. At the same time that it is keeping these bad things out, it is also protecting and strengthening feelings of peace, comfort and love inside of it. Your magic bubble of peace and protection is easy to create and is available for you to use instantly at any time or place!

To create this bubble all you have to do is take a few moments to find a quiet spot, and begin relaxing very deeply, then imagine surrounding your entire body and especially your baby in a beautiful white light. You may imagine, see, feel or just sense this light around you. Focus on and feel an abundance of peace and love radiating within it.
Once you feel yourself completely surrounded in this light your bubble of peace and protection is ready to be used. Remember that it is available to you at any time!  Use it whenever you feel that you may need to shield yourself, such as before you go into a public place, or at doctors appointments, when you around certain people, or in any stressful situations. All you have to do is imagine that bubble of light around you and it will instantly be there working for you!
If you would like to add a triple layer of protection all you have to do is imagine adding a layer of purple and a layer of green to your bubble.

Perfecting Your New Hypnobirthing Techniques

Now just because you have vowed to remain positive does not mean that you will no longer be faced with negative situations. But now you have to tools to deal with them. So instead of looking at so called “negative” situations as a bad thing begin to view them as a good thing.
Negative situations are not presented to you anymore to corrupt your thoughts, cause you fears, or detract from your positive ideas, they are now here simply as a platform for you to practice and perfect your tools and ability to remain calm and peaceful in the light of any situation.
I hope you enjoy putting these wonderful hypnobirthing techniques to use, and I look forward to hearing your comments on how they are working for you!

Yusuf swimming di klcc

Hari ni bawa yusuf swimming klcc. Suka pergi sini sebab free hehe. cuma kena bayar duit parking huhu. Park kat masjid murah sikit . Rm2.50 sejam. Tapi yg tak bestnya ibu tak leh berendam sekali huhu. Kalau umah dekat ngan pantai kan best.

Anak kakak ipar sy ada eczema. Teruk juga. Ayahnya bawa mandi pantai tiap2 hari, terus baik eczemanyer. Dah leh makan seafood bagai.

Kalau yusuf balik kelantan lehla g mandi pantai. Yusuf ni dia memang suka g swiming. Tak sabar nak ajar berenang.

Licin gak lantai klcc ni Yusuf asyik tjatuh. Kena careful gak.

Toddler low hb ( kurang sel darah merah)

Yusuf dulu pernah kene sakit ni. Start masa tula saya berenti menulis blog nih. Yela bila anak sakit kita bergilir jaga n risau lg. Macam mana boleh detect? Hehe panjang kisahnya. Kalau rajin baca, dipersilakan.

Sewaktu yusuf menyambut ulang tahun umur setahun dalam kalender islam, yusuf kena demam. Demam dia sangat panas. Dan kejap surut, pastu naik balik. Badan pun letih ajer. Tapi dlm 2 minggu yusuf dah baik. Waktu yusuf demam tu adala buat besday party, sepupu kata anak2 dia pun semua demam panas masa umur setahun. Lepas tu sepupu saya perasan ada ruam-ruam merah. Katanya biasa jer.

Pastu kak Ecar pun ada dtg umah n cakap bahaya demam panas. Anak dia warded hospital. Tapi sebab yusuf macam ok jer. Jadinya saya biarkan sebab suhu badannya dah turun.

Dalam bulan 12 kami balik ke rumah mertua di kelantan. Waktu ni saya masih fully pump. Tak campur susu formula lg. Dalam kete saya bg makan yogurt n bubur pd yusuf. Susu sy memang dah sikit waktu ni. Sekali pam dapat 3 oz je. Kalau yusuf macam minum banyak, saya campurkan air masak. Tapi sikit jer. Bagi cukup jd 4 oz.

Semasa berada di rumah mertua, bubur yg bibik sy frozenkan, rupanya basi. Sebabnya dia baru masak jam 6pagi. Lepas tu dia masuk tupperware dan masak dlm freezer. Hampeh btul.

Saya pun masaklah bubur yg ada lauk ikan merah ajer. Sebab mak mertua saya ni bila nak masak baru g beli or kutip sayur keliling umah. DisebaBkan ramuan yang tidak cukup, yusuf tak berminat dgn bubur yg sy masak. Saya selalu bg roti, yogurt dan nestum. ( nila payah kalau bergantung pada bibik huhu)

Susu badan sy pula, makin hari makin sikit. Stress giler. Sebab mertua asyik cakap susu yusuf sikit. Susu yusuf cairla huhu.

Memang sgt stress waktu tu. Selama 5 hari di kg, akhirnya pulang ke kl. Pada hari pertama yusuf sihat n makan banyak. Pada hari kedua suami saya n bibik pergi ke tanglin utk checkup setahun. Buat ujian motor skill, berat semua ok. Tapi nurse cakap kulit yusuf kuning. Suami n bibik sy cakap normal jer. Ibu dia memang kulit kuning juga.

Lepas tu nurse sruh jumpa doktor. Dr. cek darah yusuf. Didapati bacaan hb yusuf 8 shj. Normal sepatutnya 11-13. Dr. bg surat rujuk ke hkl. Petang tu suami sy pun ke hkl. Nurse sruh buat apoinment dan dtg esok pg jam 10.00.

Pg esoknya, saya n suami ke hkl. Jumpa dr. yg macam baru start keje. Muda n kene buli ngan nurse yg tua. Macam main2 jer dr. Ni. doktor kata bibir yusuf pucat n bila kita tekan pipi or tapak tangan, jadi kuning dan lambat jadi merah. Tu maknanya kurang sel darah merah. Dr. sruh cek darah. Waktu ni yusuf masih ceria, tapi dia memang asyik menguap.
To be continue.....

Yusuf

Ada sesapa yg rindu pada Yusuf tak? Hehe.. Budak ini dah besar n macam2 perangai. Semua benda nak buat sendiri.

Kalau kaedah montesori kita memang kene biar anak berdikari. Tapi dia punya masalah lepas itu kita yang kene settlekan. Makan 3-4 butir jer masuk mulut. Yang lain tumpah. Hp nak pegang sendiri, bila upin dan ipin dah habis terus baling hp huhu

Kadang2 pandai tunjung protes guling2 atas lantai. Bila kita bg benda yg dia nak terus bangun senyum. Tapi tak bercakap lg. Mujur bila kita cakap dia faham.

Rasa cam nak bg yusuf masuk tadika. Tapi cam rugi duit plak. Sebab dh ada bibik kt umah. Takpela, tengok tahun depan camner.

TTC = Trying To Conceive

Sebelum ni saya ada cakap pasal ttc kan. So now nak explain the cerita. Actually saya dah stop breastfeeding pada bulan mac yang lalu. 1 tahun full bf dan sempat 3 bulan campur fm. Frust sgt tak dapat full bf for 2 years, but saya bersyukur kerana dikurniakan semangat yang tinggi utk jadi pengepam susu tegar. pada bulan mei saya dah mencuba ttc tapi tidak secara serius. Yusuf baru setahun lebih, tapi saya bersemangat nak pregnan lg sebab nak buka kilang susu baru. At least yusuf n anak susuan saya boleh dapat stok ebm lagi.

Anak pertama saya sangat mudah hamil. Malah bunting pelamin. Namun nampaknya anak ke dua ini tidak semudah anak pertama. Well maybe becoz yusuf tak bersedia jadi abang lg kot or memang Allah ada rancangan lain utk saya.

At first i thought saya sgt subur. So senang jer nak hamil. Sebelum ni pun memang merancang giler takut hamil. But now i realised, it is not easy to get pregnan. Ramai wanita yang period teratur tapi susah juga hamil. Semakin saya google semakin stress melihat luahan hati wanita yang dah kawin lama tapi tak mengandung lg.

Therefore, i found out we are human who work in god plan. We can try make an effort but the decision will be made by Allah. So, eventhough kita mencuba produk dan doktor, still rely on rezeki. Tapi saya percaya, kalau kita berusaha peratus utk berjaya adalah 50% tetapi kalau tak berusaha peratus utk berjaya hanyalah 10%.

Sekarang baru 5 bulan saya berusaha mencari waktu subur dan usaha secara semulajadi. Nanti bulan 11 baru nak serius ttc. Target sekarang nak kuruskan badan dulu. Sebab ada kawan dia turunkan 5kg, terus hamil.

Member2 sekarang ramai berjaya kurus dgn herba life or SD2. Macam jeles pulak tengok orang berhijrah kurus n jaga makan. InsyaAllah, Kalau niat kita baik Allah akan permudahkan urusan kita.

Dua org cinta hati saya

Ku bersyukur kepada Allah dengan kurniaan insan tersayang. Semoga kasih dan sayang berkekalan di dunia dan akhirat.

Menulis blog kembali

Pergh.... Bersawang giler blog ni. Huhu lamanya tak update blog. Rindu nak menulis tapi kesibukan kerja menyebabkan stress berlebihan. Mungkin kawan2 blogger dah pun melupakan saya huhu. Tak apala, ada jodoh berjumpa lg. Alhamdulilah, sekarang kerja di office dah berkurang, boleh fokus ttc n menulis blog. Sekadar mengisi masa lapang. Wah.. Tak sabar nak share gambar raya. Tapi dah tak cun sebab sudah gemoks.

Sabun cuci cloth diaper

Sekarang ni saya bersemangat dengan Cloth Diaper (CD).
Sabun pencuci cloth diaper amat penting bagi memastikan serapan kain mampu berfungsi dengan baik.
Tapi sebab saya ni malas nak mencari dan beli dua jenis sabun jadi saya guna kan pencuci TOP :)
Dulu pakai dynamo patutla selalu bocor. Sekarang saya sudah ketagih membeli CD pula. Haih...
Jom share jenis2 sabun lain yang sesuai utk mencuci cloth diaper


 Sumber: http://epic-of-life.blogspot.com/2010/11/cloth-diapering-what-detergent-to-use.html (credit to Mei Hooi)

Detergents that is formulated for cloth diaper or best use for cloth diaper
(Available locally in Malaysia)
Autumnz - Baby Safe Laundry Detergent Rockin' Green Detergent Charlie's Soap (powder) Pure...en HAD (powder) Pureen HAD (liquid) Tiny Bubbles Detergent LunaCare Detergent Nellie's Laundry Soda Mountain Green BumGenius Diaper Detergent - www.SentuhanBayu.biz Detergents that is formulated for cloth diaper or best use for cloth diaper
(Currently NOT available locally in Malaysia yet)
Crunchy Clean Country Save Bio-Vert (with no perfume) Alltitude Bi-O-Kleen Laundry Powder Charlie's Soap (liquid) Dropps Baby Nature Clean Vaska Other detergents that is NOT formulated for cloth diaper BUT is said to be safe for cloth diaper
(Have been tried/ tested by others)
BabyOrganix Kids Wear Liquid Cleanser Cosway Kiddiewash Might Detergent Fab Trojan Kuat Harimau Cosway Ecomax - for cp and cd Shaklee Basic H Others that is NOT a detergent BUT can be use to wash cloth diaper
(Note : Might not be as effective as the other detergent though)
Soap Nut Laundry Ball Detergents that is not suppose to use for cloth diaper
(And yet there is still people using it to wash cloth diaper)
Pureen Kiddiwash
Pureen ABD
Kao Attack
Nappikleen
Top Detergent
Generally all the basic detergent can be use so long the detergent is free from additives like
- Softener
- Enyzme
- Bleach/ Whitener
- Anti-bacterial properties
- Oils
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COSWAY  :  For Ultra-Clean, Ultra-Gentle Washes
Delicate Fabric Wash
Code: 08506     600ml
 Effectively removes stains, especially protein stains like blood, food and milk, without shrinking, stretching or fading  Plant-based laundry additive leaves clothes looking vibrantly new, comfortably soft and static-free Anti-bacterial keeps clothes hygienically sanitised, ideal for washing innerwear and undergarments pH-balanced formula is non-drying to hands, and is safe for washing baby wear Rinses off easily and thoroughly, leaving no residue, thus eliminating any possibility of skin irritation or allergy Alkaline-based detergents cause 'protein fabrics' like silk and wool to shrink. This pH-neutral formula is suitable for all types of washable delicates.

Selamat tahun baru 2012

Selamat tahun baru 2012. Biasanya bila masuk tahun baru kita bersemangat kan.
Tapi bagi saya permulaan tahun baru saya sangat menyedihkan.
hmmm... Diharapkan semua masalah yang saya alami akan cepat berakhir. Ujian dari Allah ini sungguh besar dan menjadi titik hitam dalam hidup saya.
Masalah apa? huhu segan nak diceritakan sebab akan memburukkan orang lain. Biarlah menjadi rahsia.

Cuma saya berharap tahun ini Allah tingkatkan kesabaran saya dalam melalui segala ujian. Dan Sesungguhnya saya takut menjadi orang yang sesat dari suruhan Allah dan menjadi orang yang mempunyai sifat Mazmumah.

Biarlah hidupku miskin duit tapi janganlah miskin iman. Biarlah rupaku hodoh tapi jangan hina dimata Allah. Biarlah orang bosan dengan aku tapi janganlah Allah murka padaku. Sesungguhnya hidup dan matiku hanyalah kerana Allah. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin